I do like how they keep referring to me as having some kind of "mental" breakdown. (I like how I have never spoken to these people ever and yet, they "know" me so well.) Or that I have some kind of "drinking problem" to try and excuse their attack on me on Friday, July 21st, 2012. I would have thought the same thing about them. Another one of their "excuses" is that I am bitter over a review. No, that is not true! I have not had a "bad review" so how could I be bitter about having one?
Another "excuse" offered is that some girl "broke my heart" and I am lashing out. That must explain why before all of this occured, and for the past 4 months, I had her blocked on all of my accounts and Email.
Another "excuse" they use is that I was stalking her. (Please refer to my previous remark above) Not to mention the fact that about three weeks prior to my posting my Goodreads blog about "bad reviewer's" - Jude Henderson, the girl in question, befriended my friend Ira and asked her not to reveal this new found friendship to me. She then proceeded to MANIPULATE her to make her (Jude) an admin. of our blog, Love Hate Poetry, under the guise of re-designing it. All she, (Jude) wanted to do was leave a hot link to her websites on a blog that I was an admin. of.
It seems to me that the only person doing the stalking was Jude Henderson.
Jude Henderson was also the cordinator of my brutal attack on Goodreads that Friday afternoon. In a comment made by an Anon (but we know by the manner it is written, it is really an author by the name of Autumn Rosen) she clearly reveals who started the whole thing. And this raises the issue of why those people really attacked me that day. The evidence more and more points to "not for the issue" of what my blog was talking about, but because of Jude Henderson or my relationship with her.
This whole incident could have been avoided if these bullies would just learn to repsect other people's opinions and views. They yack on and on about how their "reviews" are not treated with respect when they are not good reviews and that authors go ballistic over it yet, let one "nobody" author (as they like to call me) post a little blog about them and it is bully gang up time. If they want repsect for their reviews, then perhaps making reading shelves called "poke my eyes out with a fork" isn't such a good idea.
Nothing on the internet is ever really deleted. Even if you delete it or even if Goodreads deletes it. It is still there, somewhere. It is like a text message, you text something to some one and they text you back and you both delete all of it from your phones, it is still there. It is just stored somewhere else. It is stored by the company who supplies your service. If they need to, the police, for example, can still find out what you and your friend texted each other. The same goes for emails. The same goes for websites and blogs and you name it. Everything on the internet is stored somewhere other than your hard drive. And even the things on your hard drive are still there, even if you send it to the recycle bin and delete it, it is still there. It can be pulled back up. This is what favors me. Even though I deleted all of my emails with Jude, a court order to retrieve them can be handed down and in a courtroom, the truth can be revealed.
Anyhow, here are comments that I would like to share that I recently took screen shots of. Oh, did I mention, just like everything on the internet is still there somewhere, so am I? There is even a private group started on Goodreads where these bullies can now migrate to and plan future attacks against some one else like they did to me.
People talk about the reputation of Goodreads going down hill on a story posted by the Huffington Post. These bloggers and bullies are the ones giving Goodreads the black eye. Not all bloggers, mind you, just a small circle of them. Oh, and so is Goodreads themselves damaging their own reputation when they do not enforce the TOS violations fairly. There were hundreds of TOS violations that occured against me on that Friday afternoon in question and throughout that weekend, even people showing signs of hate crime as some of them called me a "fag". While not true, has hate crime implications behind them. But the only one who got banned was me.
There is also mention of some letter this Jude Henderson is passing around. It is said that it is from an email I sent. Funny how she refuses to show the emails she sent to me. I always like how people pick and choose what they want to reveal. At least when I posted her and my email converstion here on my blog, I posted the WHOLE conversation. That is what is referred to as "being fair". But you can't explain that concept to a bunch of bullies.
Excuses will only take you so far. Long after these evil people got what they wanted, me banned, they still continue to talk about it and spread their meaningless rumors about me because none of them know anything about me. And this whole incident had nothing to do about any "list" - it was about one 18 year old girl who couldn't stand the fact that I had finally found the "mean" in me to block her from my life and move on without her. She was hurt that I now see her as a useless tool in the shed. And if by chance that Goodreads ever does get shut down, it is people like Jude Henderson, (which isn't her real name by the way) and her many bully friends who would have been the cause for it. (I mention the name thing because I have been called a fake for using a "writer's" name. Jude isn't even a writer and yet, she hides behind a fake name. Her real name is Elsa.)
And when I gave Jude an opportunity to put an end to what she started, by appearing on my blog and making a post, calling for order to be restored, she refused. And why would she refuse to try and restore order? Because she is getting a big kick over this. She doesn't care how many lives she destroys. That's her game. That's her claim to fame. And if it wasn't then let me ask this question, "How did she or any of the people who attacked me that day know that Jude and her blog would appear on the list?" - I mean, what would make them think that? - I think we all know the answer to that one. Enjoy the screen shots and a hot link to a website stil dedicated to talking, and trashing, about me and Ira. (Whom they forced to close down her blog and she had nothing at all to do with anything.)
Now, I like this next one very much. First, it clearly shows they are "still" watching me. And, they completely mis-quoted what I said. I was told (in a comment somewhere on one of these posts) that I was the flavor of the week and that next month, I would be forgotten and they would be going after some other douche. (her word, not mine) which indicated to me that they may have somebody else on their list to terrorize and get banned. I simply stated that at least being forgotten meant that at one time I was remembered whch si more than what she could say for the abyss that she calls her life. And that maybe I should try and keep the attention towards me to save somebody else from their bully attacks because unlike many people, I can take it. Again, how can you call yourself a blogger and do accurate reviews of a book with hundreds of pages if you can't even remember a few sentences that I wrote? That or they know what I write and they just like to go around lying about me. Take your pick.
We'll see what else they say in the future. Until then, it will be blogging as usual again real soon. Okay?
Don't forget the link: http://absolutewrite.com/forums/showthread.php?t=230972&page=62
In conclusion: I do want to share with you an excerpt of an email I receieved this morning. I will leave her name out of it. But for all of you who took against me because of Jude, pay close attention to where this individual says "She told me you were really a nice guy ..." I hope this doesn't contradict what she may have told all of you to get you to come after me. I think you need to ask her which is it? Am I a creeper or a really nice guy?
*** As for all of the bullying on GR and all that...
I have no idea of what has been happening. I do not know any of these people that are after you. The only one that I know is Jude and I can honestly tell you that she has never asked me to bad mouth you or not read your book. I actually have not even had any communication with her since the last time you and I did. It is funny because Jude has never told me anything about your relationship with her. I have asked questions, but, she really tip toes around it. She had actually told me that you are a really nice guy. I can only tell you what I have been told and believe me, it wasn't much. I had told you once that the relationship that the two of you had was between the two of you and I was not going to use that to influence me in any way. And I have stuck to that. I, personally have never harassed you or even talked bad about you on any public site.
I understand that you made a list of bloggers that did not read your book when you gave them a copy. I am just upset that you keep throwing me into a category of bullies, when I never once bullied you. I like to think that I am a little more professional than that. I had actually went back and forth all week as to whether I would write this email to you or not. I wanted you to hear my side, but, I did not want to add more fuel to the fire.
Please let me know your thoughts...
Thank you, ***