Carroll's Journal (The Ying and The Yang)

If anyone starts to notice in the near or distant future that some of my posts are coming up missing, not to worry, it is by design. My design. I have some major players interested in my future, and some new changes may have to be implemented in order for that future to reach its full potential. I know, I am talking in riddles, but there is good reason for it. I’m sorry I can’t elaborate at this precise time, just know that things are happening, wheels are in motion and the Carroll Bryant train is starting to pick up some heavy steam. 2013 is looking pretty good right about now. The sky is the limit.

Anyhow, just thought I would mention it so nobody starts to panic. Know what I mean?

So anyhow, I have a new interview coming up on Love Hate Poetry As many may or may not know, I have retired from interviews with the lone exception of Love Hate Poetry. Well, I have retired from blog interviews. Radio, Newspaper and TV? I’m not sure yet. The jury is still out for those mediums. I’ll post anything significant as I go along. I am currently packing my bags with plans to move away from Gutterville. That’s this imaginary place that resides in my DNA and I have decided that these bullies on Goodreads (and Goodreads itself) are no longer viable nor influential. They are small potato’s. Neither have any control or power in my world. I have been giving them way too much attention. And for them being a bunch of nobodies, that is going to change.

I know they want to think that they have some kind of purpose for mankind, but trust me, they don’t. Outside of anything that is deemed bad, they have no purpose. I do want to clarify to everyone that whatever they post about me is purely speculation, hearsay and lies. These people do not know me. They never did and they never will. They are just bullies with nothing better to do other than show their hate for their miserable lives, and they want everyone else to hate their lives too. But I think all of you already know this. Why I gave them their fifteen minutes of fame is beyond me. I guess I just wanted something to do and messing with them appeared to be the answer at the time. Now I know they are nothing but pesky little flies and to try and swat them all would be impossible. The truth be told, they are a bunch of nobodies with nobody lives. They are haters and that’s all they will ever be - and that about sums them up. I am going to stop giving them any further attention because they are not powerful enough for me to worry about them. They have no degree of honor and pretty much, they are not a threat to me so I am going to stop giving them the false indication that they are a threat. I will let them go ahead and make their little adolescent book shelves and talk about how they hate me and my work and all that stupid crap. It only shows their ignorance. (Plus, it does help for book sales) LOL

I guess what I am saying is … it is time to click the “IGNORE” button on them.

Oh, don’t get me wrong, I still think they are quite humorous. I guess I have always had a fascination with evil people. In fact, my little nephew asked me recently, “Uncle Bubby, why are there bad people in the world?” And all I could do was sigh and reply, “I don’t know, little buddy. But in life, there is the Ying and the Yang. A balance. For example, I am a good guy. I try to be as nice as I can to people. But if everybody was like that, then the world would be quite the boring place I reckon. So, the universe has to balance out Nature by adding mean people to the mix. People who enjoy doing nothing more than hate others. To just be downright mean to people. To have no conscience or remorse or even regret for their hateful words and actions. Which is why we need all the good people we can get. To help balance the scales of Nature.”

He looked up at me with his bright blue eyes and smiled. “I’m glad you’re one of the good guys, Uncle Bubby. I want to be a good guy too.”

I smiled back down at him. “Well, to be a good guy, you can’t be mean to people. Not like those bullies on Goodreads and Kindle Boards. Not like those people who attack me for no good reason. You have to try and be nice about things. Try and find something nice to say about people or say nothing all. Try and help solve problems instead of causing them.”

“Why are those people so mean to you?” He asked me. I could only shrug my shoulders and tell him. “Well pal, like I said, some people just like being mean. They like lying about people and they love to spread rumors because deep down, they are miserable inside, and jealous. I guess they hate and bully on the internet because in real life, nobody really likes them. And they don’t have the courage to bully people in real life because they are cowards and so they do it on the internet anonymously, where it is safe. This makes them feel a little better for not having a happy life in the real world. Other people’s pain is their happiness.”

“But why?” He wondered, as only a six year old could do.

“Well,” I laughed off, “that brings us back to the Ying and the Yang. You see, the bullies and mean people are the Ying while people like you and me, we are the Yang. We balance Nature out. For the two of us being good people, there has to be two bad people for Nature to be balanced. This makes the world go round.”

I don’t think he could fully understand it. To be honest, I don’t either. I mean, I have often wondered why people enjoy going around causing pain and hurt to others. Then again, why are there people like me who go around trying to be good? It’s just who I am. It’s just who they are. They thrive on other peoples misery. Maybe so they won’t feel so all alone with their misery. That’s the best I can come up with. If anyone else has a better answer, I’m all ears.

I just had to assure him that while it is okay to defend against these awful and disgusting people, one also has to pick and choose their battles. Make sure that when you take up the fight, you do so for the right reasons. And fight those who are the most dangerous. Let the small fish swim away. They are unimportant. This is when it hit me, these online bullies and haters, the girl who stalks and harass me, the lies she spews from her mouth to her friends and gets them to go after me and those friends actually believing her lies, they are all small fish. Very small fish. They are at the bottom of the food chain. They are doing nothing but looking for attention. “Look at me, look at me!” And I realized, I fell into that trap of looking at them … and there was nothing really to look at in the first place.

“Look what I can do.”

Good for you. You can create despicable book shelves on Goodreads. You can write mean reviews, and rate books one star when you haven’t even read the book. Yes, you can belittle authors on a personal level in those reviews and get all your little friends to join in. You’re so talented. Yes you can bully, hate and stalk and harass and spread lies and rumors, not to mention, tweet to the world how you hate all these people you don’t even know. Good for you! I bet your parents are proud. I bet the God you worship is proud. You sure seem proud about it. You’re a big boy (or girl) now. Congratulations! You’re a bully.

So then … why is it important to seek my attention for all those horrible things?

The bottom line is, they can say and do all the nasty things they want. They have no real affect on me or my career, right? They can’t take anything away from me. They can’t hurt my sales. They can’t stop people from coming to my blog. They can’t stop me from writing my songs … they can’t do anything bad to me. They don’t have the power. And they don’t have the power because I haven’t given them that power. And I never will!

Somewhere along the line, I forgot about that. I also realized that I was beginning to turn into what I despise the most. I was turning into them!

Welcome to the world of the Ying, and the Yang.