Carroll's Journey: Orphan Boy

Everything is just strolling along these days. Some good. Some bad. Some just .... some. Anyhow, I did get my fantasy football drafts completed early. It seems like every year I get my teams drafted earlier and earlier. Maybe one day I will get my new teams drafted just days after league championships are played. lol Hey! ... I can dream. :)

This year, I had to replace a team in our local league. We (the rest of the nine teams left) decided it was time to bring in our third female member ever and our first under 18 member, Joe's daughter, and my adopted daughter, Kelly. And for the first time ever in our league history, we actually had all ten members draft under the same roof.

MINE! lol

I had 4 at the kitchen table, 3 on the couch and Joe, Kelly and myself in my bedroom. The place was crowded, but we had a lot of fun. We had hamburgers, cheeseburgers, hotdogs, brats, pizza, KFC, with chips / dip, cake, ice cream, donuts, and plenty to drink. Lots of food and fun. It should be an exciting FF season. And along with my local team, I also have 14 other teams - 15 in total this year.

On a down side, I did have to divorce my family finally. I didn't want to do it, but after 20 plus years of problems, I decided (or realized) that things were not going to get resolved. so ... after yet another issue came about, I quickly made the decision to cut the ties. I am missing the kids like crazy, but maybe one day they will see that I did what I had to do. There is a certain way you should treat people and they should treat you and if that treatment isn't going correctly then you have to make that hard choice. I made it. Now I live with it. But I do feel freer than ever before. At least the break up wasn't all nasty. Maybe between my younger sister and I but my mother and I parted on somewhat good terms.

So now I am an orphan. What now?

I'll tell you what now .... only about a month until pre-season NFL action! lol And then a month after that .... FOOTBALL!

That's what now. Yeah, baby.

Shame Away - By Carroll Bryant

SHAME AWAY - By Carroll Bryant

There's something caught in the back of my throat 

Words I can't seem to swallow 

There's something happening over my head

Thoughts that seem to be too hollow 

Take my shame away by midnight 

Lay the blame all on me if you like 

I got a name that keeps me going strong 

And you stand there with so much need

And broken 

You claim the covers when we're sleeping 

We're not lovers anymore when we weep

I kick myself out of bed when you kick me 

We become whores to our society 

Take my shame away by midnight 

Lay the blame all on me if you like 

I got a name that keeps me going strong 

And you stand there with so much need

And broken 

My dream is your nightmare 

That's what you say 

Every night is a million different faces

Memories you didn't want to see with your own eyes

I warned you about my history 

There's something caught in the back of my throat 

Words I can't seem to swallow 

There's something happening over my head

Thoughts that seem to be too hollow 

Take my shame away by midnight 

Lay the blame all on me if you like 

I got a name that keeps me going strong 

And you stand there with so much need

And broken 

We are so broken

Love is slipping away 

Two people broken

Every night the same thing

The same pain

Loneliness eats them both alive

Video Break: Some Kind Of Magic by LVTHER

"Some Kind Of Magic" By - LVTHER: Featuring MYZICA